Tuesday, February 8, 2011

ToDaY

Today I woke up tired....again
I did make it to the gym for a great chat with my sis/friend. Love you Tam!

Today I tried to wear something different than my outfit that I have worn for several years in class pictures. (Oh my! Please someone! Take me shopping!!!)
Today I sat and chatted with my students while they painted their carp kites. I didn't care. I didn't even think about curriculum, schedules and/or IRI. I just enjoyed them looking for their "chapsticks and saying Kung Who Fat Roy." (Chopsticks and Gung Hay Fat Choy)
Today my heart smiled when my kids called me when they got home and I loved them even more!!! I can't believe they are ours. God has blessed us in ways I would have never asked and we are so lucky to have them and be a part of their lives. What a gift! I was reminded of that gift today.
Today my soul feels hungry.
It needs nourishment and much more than the just getting by.
Today I wanted parents to know that I love teaching. I love working and learning alongside their kids. That I am not there for tenure, time off or extra pay. I just want to do my job and be there to start 5 year olds on the right track, love school and know that there is someone in their corner. That I can/will teach them all they need to know if they will trust me and walk alongside me.
Today I enjoyed taking my Bug to school and being her bus driver. I realize the day is coming soon when I will no longer be needed and I will miss that part of my/our life.
Today I left my house in awe of my mom and how strong she is and how much I need her. I never would have thought and never could have dreamed but she means the world to me.
Today I sang as loud as I could on my way home. Old songs, new songs and even some help my soul songs. I felt like a Rockstar! (Then I missed my old drink.)
Today I found out a friend might not be next door to me anymore and my heart hurt. I can't possibly know how I will handle working without her beside me.
I contemplated moving to another school to be with her.
Today would be better if Mister were home.
He is fun and funny and fantastic and every other amazing word that apparently starts with F.
I miss him. I can't wait for this time in our lives to be over.

Just a few things I did today. What did you do today?

3 comments:

Unknown said...

I know how you feel I had the same morning. I am grateful that S had you as a teacher.. I credit it to how well he does at school now from having you.. He is doing very well by the way.
Hang in there I understand.. You are much stronger than me and if I can get through it so can you!

Anonymous said...

Be careful what you wish for. At least you appreciate the times you are together. I know it isn't always easy but add up all the good things and don't think of the negative. You are a wonderful person with a great marriage and good kids. You have a job you always wanted to do even though it is harder than you thought. You have a lot of people to support you and care about you. Keep your head high and don't look down.

Love ya
Mom

J and Ris said...

So wish I lived close so I could drop by your room and bring you goodies! You are one amazing person and deserve to have a great day, everyday of your life! What a blessing you are in so many peoples lives! I miss seeing/visiting with you!!!